Giant Steps

I hang suspended

(...700 hertz)

Ainít that just you
you know the facts, but you
havenít got a clue
about me or my life, why donít
you try and take the time
till then what am I supposed
to do? but then thatís just 
like you to leave me
I hang suspended on your
words, yeah you leave me 
I hang suspended on your words

donít you care? I donít read
minds and I did Iíd be
elsewhere, tell me whatís on
your mind so I can rectify in
time, or else I wonít know 
what Iím to do, but then thatís
just like you to leave me

I hang suspended on your words

Upon 9th and fairchild

I donít need you preachiní
Telliní me points of law
I got my own problems
trying to stay off the floor

as the vultures circle
and the bills and demands
fill the floor
itís been 3 weeks and 3 days
since I last stepped out my door

this is my life too
this is mine

jesus this roomís so cold
but youíve got your own problems
I canít see an end to it all

Wish I was skinny

Wishiní I was skinny
Wishiní that the whole world knew my name
Wishiní I was thrilliní, that I would never be
to blame, wishiní I was kissiní a girl with lips 
smooth as pearl, wishiní I was pretty, wish that
I could twist the world round my finger, wishiní
I had money wishiní for the time to spend it all,
wish that I could wrap the world round my finger,
but I would always love you, I guess that would 
never change.

Leaves and sand

Greet the world with tired
but something just ainít right
head of dust and leaves and sand
creeping past your window
I can see the face of love and pain
behind your smile

always the same

rub my eyes try and use my mind
dull jewel inactive fire
come to terms with things at hand
creeping past my window
swore you smelt self-loathing
feeling shame you raised your smile

Butterfly McQueen

Iíve finally broke your cool!
leave my things just where they are
I didnít think it would go this far
makes no sense no sense at all
thatís why this bird must fly away

Finally broke the rule!
butterfly you made me say
Iíd never leave but I canít stay
Iíd never hurt you willingly
but itís time this bird must fly away
bird must fly today
butterfly away

(butterfly speaks) 

what am I supposed to do now that
loveís gone away, take my life, take
my air, release me from this
body, Iíll go anywhere!

I feel you rising Butterfly McQueen

Rodney King (song for Lenny Bruce)

Do you know my name before you 
tear me apart?
Do you care who I am?

Thinking of ways

Just drop me here I can find my way clear back to my house, Iím finding
it hard trying to stay on my feet on
my own iím thinking of ways I can
get out of things just like always
with a head full of beer I will try
and tell someone tonight
I gotta get away step on the gas
go giles! (go, go)

... later
Iíll just have one more then Iíll have
to be going, someoneís waiting
Iíll just have one more, it canít do
any harm anymore, Iím thinking
of ways I can get out of things
just like always with a head full of beer
I will try and tell someone tonight

Barney (... and me)

Now itís getting colder
my hands chilled to the bone
I watch you breath and trace

itís steps as it mingles with my
own. The lake is almost frozen
the grass is silver air
the wind is high in the blue sky
I wish that I could care.
I recall when we were younger
we shared the streets of home
spoke of our dreams and soaring
schemes and places we would
go, if I stay much longer
Iíll never leave again, I have to
move I cannot stay, believe the
voice that tells me leave it all 
behind me, I know that I know 
that I am wrong, Iíll never leave 
now it has been so long

and now Iím getting older, I still
canít find the words to empathise
with whatís inside, express the way
I feel and now Iím getting older
Itís easier to hide, to run away
day after day betray the voice that tells me leave it all behind me, I
know that I know that I am wrong, Iíll 
never leave now it has been so long

Spun around

Keeling at the sink Iím reeling
waiting for the calm that canít be found
Iíve swallowed all the pills, Iím cold
and the dreams are starting to take hold.

Thinking that this room is sinking
and my God is nowhere to be found
1,2,3,4 (backwards)

If you want it, take it

Call the cops and make it loud
nowhere to hide away
nothing to bribe them with
Iíve got nothing against not being
proud, to me itís alright

grab whatís going and make it
mine, no sense in hanging
round waiting for hand-me downs
I donít worry about being proud
as long as Iím alright

If you want it, make it yours
thereís nothing bright about being
undecided
If you want it, take it all
thereís nothing cool about having
to go without

Best lose the fear

The pure lights beckon
and the music calls
but youíre trapped inside
those four walls
itís not your fault that
she has changed
itís not her fault
youíre still the same
you both work hard
and you feel the pace
but youíre the one who
knows itís not a race
to be won

and I know youíd like to disappear
youíd like to lose the fear
you dream the love you had
is near

you feel so down cos you
havenít been out
your ears are still sore
from the latest bout 
somethingís gonna have to change
arrangements must be re-arranged

and I know youíd like to disappear
youíd like to lose the fear
you dream the love you had
is near
you know you must go
but youíre frightened to leave
youíd love to stay but
youíre too scared to breathe

Take the time around

... and I think you know
I think you know my bodyís achiní
so take the time to take your time
and feel the power surging through
let it wash all over you, feel it
breaking through, try to let it help
you understand

... take what you know
break it up and re-arrange it.

Lazarus

I must be losing my mind
I keep on trying to find a way out
but itís ok you donít lock the door anymore

I, you know I never go out
and you know that I start to forget things
but itís ok they werenít essential anyway

I, and when I start to look back
I feel like Iíve spent my whole life just kicking round
and not getting in the way

and now, and maybe now I should change
because Iím starting to lose all my faith
while those around me are beaten down each day.

One is for

One is for
Man is god
god is now
end is near pain
is good time is 
dear

Run my way runaway

Come fly, fasten seatbelts before we land
give it all up to the custom man
before we can leave we must go thru again
come ride the runaway with me.

fly high engines buzziní and head in my hands
as long as they buzz then we can relax
pick up the bags and light up our flags
come ride the runaway with me.

Iíve lost the reason

Finally an OK calm has fallen over me
poverty and cops with guns have lost their reality
hunker down hunker down and let it
all wash over me
switch off my tv set, is this so bad of me
I got less from fear and feeling bad
thereís something else I need to find
I got more to find

Babyís gone but thereíll be more
Iím only twenty three
my hair is thin, my size is large, what
have I done to me
pretty soon Iíll fix a drink though Iíve been
told it will kill me

I got less from fear and feeling bad
thereís something else I need to find
I got more to find.

The white noise revisited

Hey! whatís that noise?
do you remember? 
kill yourself at work for what seems nothing at all
then you go home and you cry and you feel so
very small, so you listen to the beatles and relax and close your eyes,
and you feel it running thru you,
feel the hate well up inside

Hey! whatís that noise?
do you remember?
fashioned by the blade of a world that doesnít care
feeling so removed, drifting thru stealing air then...
pause and think about it, try to move and shift the
scream and feel alive.
Hey! whatís that noise?
do you remember?

Martin Carr 1993