Giant Steps I hang suspended (...700 hertz) Ain’t that just you you know the facts, but you haven’t got a clue about me or my life, why don’t you try and take the time till then what am I supposed to do? but then that’s just like you to leave me I hang suspended on your words, yeah you leave me I hang suspended on your words don’t you care? I don’t read minds and I did I’d be elsewhere, tell me what’s on your mind so I can rectify in time, or else I won’t know what I’m to do, but then that’s just like you to leave me I hang suspended on your words Upon 9th and fairchild I don’t need you preachin’ Tellin’ me points of law I got my own problems trying to stay off the floor as the vultures circle and the bills and demands fill the floor it’s been 3 weeks and 3 days since I last stepped out my door this is my life too this is mine jesus this room’s so cold but you’ve got your own problems I can’t see an end to it all Wish I was skinny Wishin’ I was skinny Wishin’ that the whole world knew my name Wishin’ I was thrillin’, that I would never be to blame, wishin’ I was kissin’ a girl with lips smooth as pearl, wishin’ I was pretty, wish that I could twist the world round my finger, wishin’ I had money wishin’ for the time to spend it all, wish that I could wrap the world round my finger, but I would always love you, I guess that would never change. Leaves and sand Greet the world with tired but something just ain’t right head of dust and leaves and sand creeping past your window I can see the face of love and pain behind your smile always the same rub my eyes try and use my mind dull jewel inactive fire come to terms with things at hand creeping past my window swore you smelt self-loathing feeling shame you raised your smile Butterfly McQueen I’ve finally broke your cool! leave my things just where they are I didn’t think it would go this far makes no sense no sense at all that’s why this bird must fly away Finally broke the rule! butterfly you made me say I’d never leave but I can’t stay I’d never hurt you willingly but it’s time this bird must fly away bird must fly today butterfly away (butterfly speaks) what am I supposed to do now that love’s gone away, take my life, take my air, release me from this body, I’ll go anywhere! I feel you rising Butterfly McQueen Rodney King (song for Lenny Bruce) Do you know my name before you tear me apart? Do you care who I am? Thinking of ways Just drop me here I can find my way clear back to my house, I’m finding it hard trying to stay on my feet on my own i’m thinking of ways I can get out of things just like always with a head full of beer I will try and tell someone tonight I gotta get away step on the gas go giles! (go, go) ... later I’ll just have one more then I’ll have to be going, someone’s waiting I’ll just have one more, it can’t do any harm anymore, I’m thinking of ways I can get out of things just like always with a head full of beer I will try and tell someone tonight Barney (... and me) Now it’s getting colder my hands chilled to the bone I watch you breath and trace it’s steps as it mingles with my own. The lake is almost frozen the grass is silver air the wind is high in the blue sky I wish that I could care. I recall when we were younger we shared the streets of home spoke of our dreams and soaring schemes and places we would go, if I stay much longer I’ll never leave again, I have to move I cannot stay, believe the voice that tells me leave it all behind me, I know that I know that I am wrong, I’ll never leave now it has been so long and now I’m getting older, I still can’t find the words to empathise with what’s inside, express the way I feel and now I’m getting older It’s easier to hide, to run away day after day betray the voice that tells me leave it all behind me, I know that I know that I am wrong, I’ll never leave now it has been so long Spun around Keeling at the sink I’m reeling waiting for the calm that can’t be found I’ve swallowed all the pills, I’m cold and the dreams are starting to take hold. Thinking that this room is sinking and my God is nowhere to be found 1,2,3,4 (backwards) If you want it, take it Call the cops and make it loud nowhere to hide away nothing to bribe them with I’ve got nothing against not being proud, to me it’s alright grab what’s going and make it mine, no sense in hanging round waiting for hand-me downs I don’t worry about being proud as long as I’m alright If you want it, make it yours there’s nothing bright about being undecided If you want it, take it all there’s nothing cool about having to go without Best lose the fear The pure lights beckon and the music calls but you’re trapped inside those four walls it’s not your fault that she has changed it’s not her fault you’re still the same you both work hard and you feel the pace but you’re the one who knows it’s not a race to be won and I know you’d like to disappear you’d like to lose the fear you dream the love you had is near you feel so down cos you haven’t been out your ears are still sore from the latest bout something’s gonna have to change arrangements must be re-arranged and I know you’d like to disappear you’d like to lose the fear you dream the love you had is near you know you must go but you’re frightened to leave you’d love to stay but you’re too scared to breathe Take the time around ... and I think you know I think you know my body’s achin’ so take the time to take your time and feel the power surging through let it wash all over you, feel it breaking through, try to let it help you understand ... take what you know break it up and re-arrange it. Lazarus I must be losing my mind I keep on trying to find a way out but it’s ok you don’t lock the door anymore I, you know I never go out and you know that I start to forget things but it’s ok they weren’t essential anyway I, and when I start to look back I feel like I’ve spent my whole life just kicking round and not getting in the way and now, and maybe now I should change because I’m starting to lose all my faith while those around me are beaten down each day. One is for One is for Man is god god is now end is near pain is good time is dear Run my way runaway Come fly, fasten seatbelts before we land give it all up to the custom man before we can leave we must go thru again come ride the runaway with me. fly high engines buzzin’ and head in my hands as long as they buzz then we can relax pick up the bags and light up our flags come ride the runaway with me. I’ve lost the reason Finally an OK calm has fallen over me poverty and cops with guns have lost their reality hunker down hunker down and let it all wash over me switch off my tv set, is this so bad of me I got less from fear and feeling bad there’s something else I need to find I got more to find Baby’s gone but there’ll be more I’m only twenty three my hair is thin, my size is large, what have I done to me pretty soon I’ll fix a drink though I’ve been told it will kill me I got less from fear and feeling bad there’s something else I need to find I got more to find. The white noise revisited Hey! what’s that noise? do you remember? kill yourself at work for what seems nothing at all then you go home and you cry and you feel so very small, so you listen to the beatles and relax and close your eyes, and you feel it running thru you, feel the hate well up inside Hey! what’s that noise? do you remember? fashioned by the blade of a world that doesn’t care feeling so removed, drifting thru stealing air then... pause and think about it, try to move and shift the scream and feel alive. Hey! what’s that noise? do you remember? Martin Carr 1993